Cleary life changes when you decide to have children and having our cheeky Charlie all to ourselves for over 5 years you question yourself “how will we ever cope with two” or “how will we love another child as much” but after 6 months with Grace being in our little lives we wonder how we ever managed without her.
Second time around I found the whole journey from the pregnancy to labour to coping with a new baby a much happier experience. I’m in a great place personally, more confident and so grateful and aware of how precious life really is. I’m 37 this year and I very much doubt I will try again for another baby so I find myself cherishing every moment. With Charlie I was always looking at the next stage instead of living in the moment which I’m sure is down to being clueless, scared – I felt that I relied on people’s advice or books to get me through each stage.
I find myself talking and acting like my own mum which really does tickle me because as a youngster I couldn’t imagine being anything like my parents but that’s the beauty of having kids. The principles are still the same as they were back then, we just want to protect them, love them and ensure they have the best life they possibly can. I have to say its an honour being mum to my amazing children so thank you Charlie & Grace for giving me happiness that is untouchable. I hope one day you get to read this.
I’m coming towards the end of my maternity leave and will return to work where a new chapter begins. I’m actually looking forward to going back as I’m going to be having the best of both worlds, carrying out the job I love on reduced hours & still spend time with my children – perfect combo.
To set the record straight as people have commented saying “why is you’re life so perfect”, “you come across as everything is sweet & dandy” well I can assure you its not always so easy and I’ve had my share of tough times just like everyone else but a few years ago I had what some might say a light bulb moment. I want to make sure I make the most of my life, provide and give my children what I hope to be a happy and fulfilling life, take chances on opportunities and ideas that excite me. I try my best to block out any negativity or snide comments such as “why did you start a blog? why do you think you would be any good?” my answer is simple “why the hell not!”. If you don’t try you’ll never know. I love this quote “Maybe it won’t work out but maybe seeing if it does will be the best adventure ever”
So what’s next for me… Well enjoy the remainder of my maternity leave, keep growing my blog, plan my wedding and basically make the most out of our little lives.
Big love, Nicola xx